I feel plastic.
I don’t mean that I feel cheap or environmentally unfriendly (at least not today), I mean that I feel magnificently malleable. It’s like my brain is softening as it breathes out years of neural tension, a massive and much needed sigh of cerebral relief. I sense electrical impulses starting to move more fluidly and freely between the circuits that make up my physical existence, and I start to relax into more of who I am.
I’m also acutely aware of how the words that bounce around in my head have become calcified connections that dictate how I live. I understand what Dr. Joe Dispenza means when he talks about the habit of being yourself, how our thoughts can program rigid versions of who we are allowed to be. I appreciate what it means to call something “mind-numbing,” and I notice the dull hum of boredom that resonates from routine rumination.
I wonder where this has led me to sleep-walk through my life, and then I wonder if there’s another way to think about sleep-walking. Maybe it would be counterproductive to shake myself awake, to forcibly open my eyes and look around at reality. Maybe it’s not that I forgot to wake up, it’s that I forgot that I don’t need to. Maybe “reality” is just a collection of all the things I have decided that I know, and nothing will ever change if I keep insisting that I wake up.
So even as I sit here staring at this screen, I’m going to pretend that my eyes are closed. I’m going to write this post in my imagination. Because if reality is what I already know, then surely imagination is where I can find all of the things that I have yet to experience.
Author’s note: I got carried away here and pictured myself as a dragon.
This weekend, the pull into the imaginal realm will be impossible to resist. Our mental mage Mercury is mingling with nebulous Neptune in infinite Pisces, and there will be no escaping the ecstasy of escapism. It is a chance to step outside of your usual way of being yourself, to close your eyes and put something much, much bigger in your place.
It’s true that in traditional terms, this is not a comfortable place for Mercury. Mercury loves left-brained logic and revels in the “right” answers that accurate analysis offers. But Pisces is no place for details, and Neptune has no interest in linear processing. So this is the last place to look for a clear, predictable flow of events, and that can be feverishly frustrating for the parts of us that find comfort in the certainty of our inner monologues.
To put this more simply: Mercury is in thought soup. It’s not going to be an option to move in straight lines, and going around in circles would be carelessly counterproductive. Our best option is to swim in spirals, knowing that the further we allow ourselves to float from our center, the more we’ll know is possible. It is a wonderful opportunity to flush out stale narratives about what you have to be, to clear out the sticky residue your thoughts leave behind.
Neuroscience note: Thought residue is a thing, and it’s managed by the glymphatic system.
With a dark and waning moon these next two days, this is truly excellent cosmic weather for brain hygiene. It’s also a great time to tap into your dreams, or maybe even to tap into an awareness that this is all a dream at Sunday’s New Moon in Pisces. I talk more about the New Moon in this week’s Oracle, and I share the image that arrived in my mind as I connected with it.
This week also heralds the beginning of the time tunnel that is eclipse season. Eclipses don’t f*ck around - they bring tremendous change that can raise deep feelings of fear, discomfort and insecurity. I have learned (the hard way) that the smoothest passage through these emotional earthquakes involves letting go of any expectations of what will happen. This means noticing how I want to scream and shout when I get knocked off center, and it means choosing to find the calm within no matter what life presents.
If this inspires you to do some emotional spring cleaning, I’ll be doing a (free) super-powered Eclipse Season Energy Clearing to help you more easily embrace the unknown on Monday, April 1 at 1:30 PM PST / 4:30 PM EST / 9:30 PM UK / 10:30 PM Europe (sign up here and find full details below). Please know that you’ll get all of the benefits of the clearing if you listen later at your leisure, and this time around I’ll also offer (off-camera) individual insight for those who can join live.
Love,
Patrick
Eclipse Energy Clearing
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Weekly Oracle
This week we sink into the whirlpool energy of a New Moon in Pisces. We look for opportunities to shake up our relationship with security, and we embrace the creative freedom we get from closing our eyes. We also welcome Mercury into the refreshingly blunt sign of Aries, and we let Venus in Pisces show us how to fall in love with love.
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