We all know what it feels like to want something.
It’s an intrinsic part of our experience as humans, and I would wager that some of your first sentences were exuberant expressions of your desires. This is part of what drives us to explore the world around us, maybe even part of why we came here in the first place - because we wanted to. We saw there was a chance to live on this wonderful planet and we took it, no questions asked.
On that most fundamental level, want is a good thing. Want can fill us with the charge we need to create our lives, and it can direct us forward in the realization of our highest purpose. Want ushers us in ardent adventures with ever-evolving excitement, like a compass that points the way to our personal nirvana. A life without want is stagnant, flat, borrrrrrring.
We also know, though, that want can lead us astray. The fires in our heart are easily fueled, and without containment they can rapidly consume our existence. We can live our whole lives in a state of wanting more, a perpetual pursuit of fleeting fulfillment that leaves us feeling fundamentally incomplete. We can even want things we already know will not make us happy, because want has nothing to do with wisdom.
We do, in fact, want things for all sorts of reasons - because they give us momentary pleasure, because other people have them, because somebody told us we should want them. So maybe the part of us that wants is not the part of us that knows what is best for us. And it’s no wonder that when children learn to tell us what they want, we begin telling them why they can’t have it. I offer daily explanations to my kids why they can’t eat their bodyweight in candy, why they can’t snatch someone else’s toy, why they can’t force a friend to play a game.
It’s a really tricky balance, and I know that sometimes I don’t get it right. Sometimes a piece of candy helps us smile just right on the inside; sometimes we find inspiration sitting in the hands of others; sometimes people have excellent ideas about what we would most enjoy. I am sure that I have denied my children things that would have brought bliss to their souls, and I say this because I know that happened to me, too.
This is what I have come to think of as my “want wound.” It is the part of me that no longer feels safe wanting things. My want wound fears that I will be denied access to the delights of my destiny, and it does not trust in my infinite capacity to love my life. I notice that it smarts and stings particularly when I prepare to begin a new chapter, as if to hold me back from hopeful expectations.
I wonder if we all have want wounds, and I wonder what purpose they serve. Perhaps we will soon find out, for the upcoming Solar Eclipse on April 8 will almost certainly poke us right in the want wound. Solar Eclipses deliver a super-powered serving of cosmic commencement energy, and this particular Eclipse has all the makings of a celestial chorus for the dangling desires of our souls.
The Eclipse will come to us from Aries, align with the Moon’s North Node, and sit atop the planetoid Chiron. Aries is a place where we are encouraged to audaciously assert our self-interest, to ask Our Universe for exactly what we want without apology or hesitation. The North Node is a notoriously hungry place, a mythological dragon without a stomach to satisfy its voracious appetite. And Chiron represents the wound that does not heal, a permanently tender portal to our open heart. In other words: we want it, we want it baaaaaaad, we want it so bad that it hurts.
So if you accept this unmissable invitation to feel into your want wound, you can let it take you below the surface. You can request that it discern where the want is coming from, that it reveal what lies in your body, mind and soul. You can allow it to tune in to all that you want to create with Our Universe, just as you can beseech it to illuminate what Our Universe wants to create with you. And you can soothe it by choosing to want what you already have, to know that it’s safe to be soft because Our Universe always provides you with what you need.
I’ll share more about the Solar Eclipse next week, and you’re also welcome to join me this coming Monday (live or later) for a (free) Eclipse Energy Clearing to help you find balance in these turbulent times. We talk more about what to expect these next few days in the Weekly Oracle, and we find blessings in the ephemeral healing power of fantasy.
Love,
Patrick
Eclipse Energy Clearing
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Eclipses announce colossal, sudden and intense changes in our lives and the world around us
Gates of opportunity open wide as we release the old and welcome the new
Feelings of fear, discomfort and insecurity let us know that we are evolving
Clearing our energy and grounding in our life experience helps us move boldly forward
Offering compassion to those who struggle with change opens our hearts
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Weekly Oracle
This week we get pumped for the beginning of Mercury’s retrograde in Aries and the opportunity to reconsider which thoughts get a fast track to action. We appreciate an especially powerful time to release constrictive notions of responsibility with the Third Quarter Moon in Capricorn, and we let ourselves get swept off of our feet with Venus and Neptune in Pisces.
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